HomeThis BPD (bipolar disorder) is really driving me nuts. It is crazy how you can feel opposite emotions at the same time. I can feel calm and panicked at the same time, depressed and extremely joyful, melancholy and exceedingly optimistic. Logically this seems impossible but it happens and is truly an unpleasant thing to deal with.
I have been dealing with this for years and have avoided mentioning it in my journal as most people don’t really care to read about depressing stuff and it seems like I am whining. I think however I can use this as a little bit of a release.
There are people in my life who are sympathetic and loving but unless you feel this way, you can’t really understand what it is like.
A friend of mine was recently diagnosed with it and is having a hard time dealing with it, actually more with the fact that it will never go away. I hope I can help her deal with the realization, but it is so different for each person.
Well, that is all of my wallowing for today.